Maiden, Mother, Crone

The cycle of the moon, woman and life.

How do you cope with the emotion of slowly moving onto Crone when you desperately desire to remain as Mother? What if your womanly instinct is screaming at you to reproduce while your evolutionary path is moving you on? How do you believe that all is working as it is planned and for the best when you are begging and pleading with the universe to please honour you with a child?

How do you move on?

How do you do nothing, not seek the assistance you know is readily available?

How do you continue to love and nurture a body that has failed you after 12 years of infertility and miscarriage of precious desperately wanted twins?

How do you learn to release the pain that is burning within you?

How do you accept the fate of your soul to carry this pain for the rest of this life?

When you are usually prophetic, how do you accept that your dreams betray you cycle after cycle?

Some say I am blessed, I have 2 healthy biological children from a previous relationship and an amazing step-daughter. ‘Be thankful’ they say!  ‘Adopt! Foster! IVF!’ Others advise! Some say I am ‘too old’, 41 is after all after a woman’s ‘peak’ fertility window. ‘But the risks’ they say! ‘Wait for grandchildren’ they tell me! ‘The travel’ I’m capable of! The ‘lovely home’ I can have!

For those who have never experienced the pain of infertility, miscarriage or child loss will never understand the emptiness, the longing, the pleading, the begging, the crying, the screaming, the silent praying that THIS time, THIS cycle please be the one. I don’t begrudge the words given with love to us by people who are trying their best to comfort us and want the very best for us. I am happy to carry this burden if it means that my family and friends do not have to. I sacrifice myself in the hope that they never have to know the pain that envelopes me, Every. Single. Month.

I want to nurture a child that is biologically that of myself and my husband. A child who represents the love that we have for one another. I so deeply desire that most precious gift to be bestowed upon us. My gentle, patient, big hearted husband just wants me to be happy. He would literally do whatever I ask of him to make this possible. He drinks whatever concoction I place in front of him and swallows any pill that is thrust on him.

Just as the moon has its cycle, I must learn to accept that I too must pass through these cycles. My beautiful daughter’s while very much still in their maiden cycle will one day soon take the realm of mother. It will be their turn. One day my son will find a lovely woman and with the universe willing she will also enter the cycle of mother.

Then I am sure I will enjoy the role of Crone and Grandmother that is slowly but surely coming for me.

Until that time I will continue to enjoy the realm of mother, silently praying, begging and crying with moon.

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Imbolc

Purification and Fire

August 1-2 Here in the Southern Hemisphere.

Traditionally Imbolc is the time the goddess is cleansed and purified. Milk flows for the lambs and baby God. The quickening of the Earth. Goddess preparing for her return to Maiden. The Earth prepares for the fertility of Spring. Life starts new at this time of cleansing.

Modern day Pagans may choose to honour this sabbat with ritual, creating a Brigit’s or solar cross or corn doilies.

Some other ways you may like to honour include;

  • Light a fire
  • Prepare a feast to share
  • Clearing out the old to allow the new to enter
  • Burn Yule greens to send winter on it’s way
  • Leave buttered bread overnight indoors for the fairies on the eve of the Sabbat
  • Cleanse your Alter
  • Cleanse your home with sage, rosemary and sandalwood
  • Write your troubles and anxieties on scraps of paper and burn away in your Imbolc Fire
  • Light candles of white, yellow, red and light green
  • Image Lunaesque
  • Peppermint 

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    Definitely in my top 5 essential oils, peppermint oil is one of the most versatile to use around the home. This should be a staple essential oil in every home! It has natural antimicrobial properties and is perfect for household cleaning.

    While I never recommend ingesting essential oils except under the supervision of a trained professional, peppermint essential oil has an amazing calming effect on the body. It has the ability help with digestive issues as well as reducing the symptoms of nausea and the severity of headaches. It has also long been used in relieving dental pain.

    Mix peppermint oil with a carrier oil such as almond or coconut oil and rub onto sore or cramping muscles. You can also use on your stomach to help ease digestive pain.

    Use peppermint oil in your diffuser to provide relief for provide relief for colds, cough, sinusitis, asthma, and bronchitis and to provide a natural energy lift.

    Personally I like to use peppermint essential oil in my homemade surface spray. Place 30 or so drops into a spray bottle with a quarter cup of white vinegar and top with distilled water.

    If you are lucky enough to grow your own peppermint, you can distill your own peppermint vinegar cleaner by distilling a quarter cup of dried peppermint and one cup of white vinegar in a glass jar. Seal and leave in a warm sunny spot. After 10 days strain your vinegar. This blend should be used in a 1:3 water solution and can be used for any of your household cleaning. Once you start to replace the toxic chemicals from your environment you will notice just how irritating they are to our bodies when you do come in contact with them!

    You can purchase my Pure Australian Essential Oil Here

    Morrigan

    The Great Goddess

    A Healer, Midwife, Protector of the Land, Legendary Witch, The Moon

    Often depicted as the keeper of death however Morrigan is also the giver and sustainer of life and power.

    A shape shifter who is often represented by the Crow, Raven, Owl or Vulture.

    She is the Earth Element.

    A Triple Goddess representing the maiden, mother, crone.

    Call on her in times of Transformation, Regeneration and Renewing. If Morrigan is on your side during battle you can be assured of victory.

    Morrigan has given birth to countless daughters whose blood still runs through the veins of her decendants.

    For further in depth reading on the history of Morrigan I recommend http://www.druidry.org/library/gods-goddesses/morrigan

    Image Source Pintrest

    A Full Moon Ritual

     

    The full moon is the perfect time for not just manifesting but also investing in yourself for a few hours.

    My full moon ritual consists of;

    Cooking a meal to share with my family, something nourishing that we can be thankful for. For me cooking is a passion, I love getting the balance of flavours just right and enjoy making a meal look appetizing.

    I of course take a bath with my beautiful soaks and essential oils. I take this time to think about all of the things that I am thankful for not just from the previous cycle but also my entire life. Even when things are a little bit rocky there is ALWAYS something to be thankful for. If I am having a particularly bad time sometimes I just focus on my breathing and give thanks for that. Twenty minutes of meditating in a bath is enough to ground me, and for me to realise that life’s dramas and problems are never as bad as they first appear.

    I take my crystals out to bask in the moon light and recharge. At this time I silently speak to the Mother Earth. Depending on what I am manifesting I may light a candle that has a special meaning to me, either the scent or the colour. Throughout the cycle I will continue to burn the candle to remind me what I am focusing on.

    While super moons are common, with between 4 to 6 occurring every year, tonight’s super moon will be the closest that it has been to earth in 70 years. Her pull on the earth is felt even by those who do not believe in her magic, just ask those who work in emergency wards or with small children!

    Expect the effects to be magnified! The old saying ‘Be careful what you wish for’ holds significant meaning. Be clear, be positive and be specific. You can’t just say I want a million dollars & expect someone to come knocking on your door! You have to have a clear focus & understand that things take time to manifest.

    I dream of owning a little cottage with lush green land all around. A long driveway lined with magnificent trees, a flowing creek. Gardens filled with vegetables, herbs and flowers. Chickens roaming around. Veranda’s with comfy chairs for reading, spaces for art and cooking. All of my favourite things.

    I know these things take time, but I believe.

     

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    Protect Your Wild Heart

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    Artwork by VoogsArt available through Etsy

     

    Beware those who prey on the kindness and perceived weakness of others.  In this day and age these predators are all around us. They can be lovers, friends, business associates, yoga instructors, that music loving ‘free spirit’. They can be men or women. There are people doing their best to make a quick dollar by jumping on the holistic, hipster bandwagon.

    Social media is a double edged sword, it provides us with the means to ‘follow’ those people who seem to be on our wave length. Those gurus that seem to have it all together. They share photo after photo of their perfect bodies and perfect life and their latest products and creations.  We  can now collect ‘friends’ that we would never stop and have a conversation with in the street, however we inadvertently  share our happiest and worst moments with.

    Protect your precious heart for not everyone is who they seem.

     

    Make sure you take the time to really get to know people. Find out what makes them tick, what are their passions? Be open and honest and true to who you are, but protect your precious heart. There is no rush wild one. Good people will be the same way with you that you are with them. A wise woman once told me to let people be who they are and do what they do because only then will you see the true person that they are. Even the most cunning fox can only put on an act for so long.

    Beware the manipulator. The charming person who projects an image of kindness and joy and love. If they try to change you; what you wear, what you eat, the way you style your hair, your friends or your passions then they are not what they seem on the surface. It can be difficult to spot a manipulator in the beginning. They are great at controlling situations and people to get what they need in life. While their victim is still trying to understand how a situation has occurred the manipulator has already moved onto planning the next attack. Run while you can my love because once a manipulator has you in their grasp slowly eroding your confidence over time it can be difficult to escape. Once you do you may find yourself needing a lot of time to recover and remember who you are.

    The Narcissist & perpetual victim will draw you in with their tales of hardship and wrongdoings against them. In the beginning you may actually like this person, but as the friendship progresses you will begin to notice a pattern repeating itself.  There’s always a new drama, whether it’s a terrible childhood tale, a negative work situation, constant illness, issues with bosses or work colleagues and even other ‘narcissistic’ ex-lovers or friends.  When you withdraw the support and energy you are giving to the victim you often find yourself as another perpetrator in the narcissist’s web of lies. The truth is that we have all been victims at one point or another. It is how we chose to progress from that point, that defines who we are.

    Don’t change who you are, just be aware. Continue to love completely. Continue to care deeply. That is what makes you so beautiful. True beauty radiates from the depths of your soul. Live a life that is filled with love and passion, chase your dreams. Collect the people you love and hold on to them tight but gently discard the toxic.

    Shine bright wild one but remember – kindness, not weakness.

     

    Feathers

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    This stunning water colour painting is by Sydney artist Louise De Masi and can be purchased through Etsy

     

    Do you find feathers in your travels? Lately I have been finding them every few days. Many cultures, tribes and religions believe that finding a feather in your path is a sign from your angels or guides and that they carry a message, a special meaning and magic.

    When you are sent a feather use it as a sign that you are on the right path, a cosmic hello from your ancestors! Be thankful for the sign. Make sure you always take the time to be thankful for the small things, like the warm sun on your skin, the feel of the sand or earth beneath your feet, finding a treasure like a small coin, a shell or a feather.

    Different colour feathers carry different meanings, however, try not to get to caught up on the individual meanings. Use your intuition, if you have been asking for guidance on a particular topic or situation perhaps it is relating to that. What is it that you have been thinking about the most recently?

    White Feathers

    Symbolise;

    • Peace
    • Hope
    • Trust
    • Faith
    • Protection
    • A sign from the moon, have you performed a moon ritual lately? It may be a sign that you are on the right path or that things are in motion.

    Black Feathers

    Symbolise;

    • Protection
    • A warning of negative energy
    • Spiritual wisdom, are you going through a period of growth or increased knowledge?
    • May be providing insight into a situation. A reminder to set boundaries and remain aware of what is going on.

    Grey Feathers

    Symbolise;

    • Peace and neutrality

    Brown Feathers

    Symbolise;

    • Stability
    • Grounding
    • Respect
    • Friendship
    • Home

    Green Feathers

    Symbolise;

    • Health and healing
    • Money and prosperity
    • Success
    • A message from your animal guides

    Blue Feathers

    Symbolise;

    • Peace
    • Inspiration
    • Psychic awareness and  connection to your spirit guides