Maiden, Mother, Crone

The cycle of the moon, woman and life.

How do you cope with the emotion of slowly moving onto Crone when you desperately desire to remain as Mother? What if your womanly instinct is screaming at you to reproduce while your evolutionary path is moving you on? How do you believe that all is working as it is planned and for the best when you are begging and pleading with the universe to please honour you with a child?

How do you move on?

How do you do nothing, not seek the assistance you know is readily available?

How do you continue to love and nurture a body that has failed you after 12 years of infertility and miscarriage of precious desperately wanted twins?

How do you learn to release the pain that is burning within you?

How do you accept the fate of your soul to carry this pain for the rest of this life?

When you are usually prophetic, how do you accept that your dreams betray you cycle after cycle?

Some say I am blessed, I have 2 healthy biological children from a previous relationship and an amazing step-daughter. ‘Be thankful’ they say!  ‘Adopt! Foster! IVF!’ Others advise! Some say I am ‘too old’, 41 is after all after a woman’s ‘peak’ fertility window. ‘But the risks’ they say! ‘Wait for grandchildren’ they tell me! ‘The travel’ I’m capable of! The ‘lovely home’ I can have!

For those who have never experienced the pain of infertility, miscarriage or child loss will never understand the emptiness, the longing, the pleading, the begging, the crying, the screaming, the silent praying that THIS time, THIS cycle please be the one. I don’t begrudge the words given with love to us by people who are trying their best to comfort us and want the very best for us. I am happy to carry this burden if it means that my family and friends do not have to. I sacrifice myself in the hope that they never have to know the pain that envelopes me, Every. Single. Month.

I want to nurture a child that is biologically that of myself and my husband. A child who represents the love that we have for one another. I so deeply desire that most precious gift to be bestowed upon us. My gentle, patient, big hearted husband just wants me to be happy. He would literally do whatever I ask of him to make this possible. He drinks whatever concoction I place in front of him and swallows any pill that is thrust on him.

Just as the moon has its cycle, I must learn to accept that I too must pass through these cycles. My beautiful daughter’s while very much still in their maiden cycle will one day soon take the realm of mother. It will be their turn. One day my son will find a lovely woman and with the universe willing she will also enter the cycle of mother.

Then I am sure I will enjoy the role of Crone and Grandmother that is slowly but surely coming for me.

Until that time I will continue to enjoy the realm of mother, silently praying, begging and crying with moon.

Photo credit – Pinterest

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Imbolc

Purification and Fire

August 1-2 Here in the Southern Hemisphere.

Traditionally Imbolc is the time the goddess is cleansed and purified. Milk flows for the lambs and baby God. The quickening of the Earth. Goddess preparing for her return to Maiden. The Earth prepares for the fertility of Spring. Life starts new at this time of cleansing.

Modern day Pagans may choose to honour this sabbat with ritual, creating a Brigit’s or solar cross or corn doilies.

Some other ways you may like to honour include;

  • Light a fire
  • Prepare a feast to share
  • Clearing out the old to allow the new to enter
  • Burn Yule greens to send winter on it’s way
  • Leave buttered bread overnight indoors for the fairies on the eve of the Sabbat
  • Cleanse your Alter
  • Cleanse your home with sage, rosemary and sandalwood
  • Write your troubles and anxieties on scraps of paper and burn away in your Imbolc Fire
  • Light candles of white, yellow, red and light green
  • Image Lunaesque
  • Ostara – The Spring Equinox


    Ostara or the Spring Equinox will be celebrated on the 23rd of September in the Southern Hemisphere this year.

    The earth is starting to awaken and is reborn as the fathers mighty rays warm the land.

    I have put together a list of simple, economic rituals for marking the sabbat for those of us not involved with a coven.

    • Revamp your altar. Add plants, flowers, white candles. Add items that celebrate spring!
    • Create a sacred space in your garden or a sunny spot on your verandah. Plant new seedlings, install wind chimes or create an outdoor altar.
    • Honour the mother earth by visiting the beach, a rain forest or an outdoor area that you feel drawn to. Plant your bare feet on the ground and reconnect with her magnificent energy.
    • Perform a ‘Spring Clean’. De-clutter, wipe down all bench tops, walls and doors with a mixture of water, peppermint essential oil and vinegar. Open all doors and windows then perform an energy cleanse using sage or noise such as a bell, clapping or a crystal singing bowl. Walk through each room closing it up as you finish. Start at the rear of your home and work towards the front to sweep any negative energy out the front door. You can perform an incantation as you travel through each room to cleanse and bless.
    • Meditate, use the energy of the equinox to recharge and reconnect.
    • Host a meal for those you are closest to. Incorporate food and drinks of Ostara such as seeds, leafy greens, spring vegetables, eggs and chocolate. If you eat meat you could utilse young meat such as chicken or lamb, just make sure to show gratitude for their sacrifice. Anything fresh young and vibrant is suitable. Eat outside, take advantage of the warmer days and evenings. Listen to the birds and insects.
    • Give an offering of honey or cake to the fae in your garden. 

      Image Credit: Fred Fields

      Full Moon in Gemini

      The full moon will rise in the Southern Hemisphere on the 13th of December at 17.39pm. This will be the final super moon for 2016, so it’s our last chance to take advantage of the additional power this will generate.

      This cycle is in the zodiac sign of Gemini. Gemini is a time for new ideas and information. Listen and try to understand what is important. Use this full moon to evaluate what you have learnt this year, be thankful for the blessings that you have received and release what is no longer serving you.

      Say goodbye to 2016, a year of lessons and heavy emotions and prepare to welcome 2017, a year of new beginnings and fresh starts.

      Perform a cleansing ritual on yourself & your space. Charge your crystals and tools. And bathe in the last powerful moonlight for 2016.

       

       

       

      A Full Moon Ritual

       

      The full moon is the perfect time for not just manifesting but also investing in yourself for a few hours.

      My full moon ritual consists of;

      Cooking a meal to share with my family, something nourishing that we can be thankful for. For me cooking is a passion, I love getting the balance of flavours just right and enjoy making a meal look appetizing.

      I of course take a bath with my beautiful soaks and essential oils. I take this time to think about all of the things that I am thankful for not just from the previous cycle but also my entire life. Even when things are a little bit rocky there is ALWAYS something to be thankful for. If I am having a particularly bad time sometimes I just focus on my breathing and give thanks for that. Twenty minutes of meditating in a bath is enough to ground me, and for me to realise that life’s dramas and problems are never as bad as they first appear.

      I take my crystals out to bask in the moon light and recharge. At this time I silently speak to the Mother Earth. Depending on what I am manifesting I may light a candle that has a special meaning to me, either the scent or the colour. Throughout the cycle I will continue to burn the candle to remind me what I am focusing on.

      While super moons are common, with between 4 to 6 occurring every year, tonight’s super moon will be the closest that it has been to earth in 70 years. Her pull on the earth is felt even by those who do not believe in her magic, just ask those who work in emergency wards or with small children!

      Expect the effects to be magnified! The old saying ‘Be careful what you wish for’ holds significant meaning. Be clear, be positive and be specific. You can’t just say I want a million dollars & expect someone to come knocking on your door! You have to have a clear focus & understand that things take time to manifest.

      I dream of owning a little cottage with lush green land all around. A long driveway lined with magnificent trees, a flowing creek. Gardens filled with vegetables, herbs and flowers. Chickens roaming around. Veranda’s with comfy chairs for reading, spaces for art and cooking. All of my favourite things.

      I know these things take time, but I believe.

       

      Image source Pintrest

      Feathers

      feathers
      This stunning water colour painting is by Sydney artist Louise De Masi and can be purchased through Etsy

       

      Do you find feathers in your travels? Lately I have been finding them every few days. Many cultures, tribes and religions believe that finding a feather in your path is a sign from your angels or guides and that they carry a message, a special meaning and magic.

      When you are sent a feather use it as a sign that you are on the right path, a cosmic hello from your ancestors! Be thankful for the sign. Make sure you always take the time to be thankful for the small things, like the warm sun on your skin, the feel of the sand or earth beneath your feet, finding a treasure like a small coin, a shell or a feather.

      Different colour feathers carry different meanings, however, try not to get to caught up on the individual meanings. Use your intuition, if you have been asking for guidance on a particular topic or situation perhaps it is relating to that. What is it that you have been thinking about the most recently?

      White Feathers

      Symbolise;

      • Peace
      • Hope
      • Trust
      • Faith
      • Protection
      • A sign from the moon, have you performed a moon ritual lately? It may be a sign that you are on the right path or that things are in motion.

      Black Feathers

      Symbolise;

      • Protection
      • A warning of negative energy
      • Spiritual wisdom, are you going through a period of growth or increased knowledge?
      • May be providing insight into a situation. A reminder to set boundaries and remain aware of what is going on.

      Grey Feathers

      Symbolise;

      • Peace and neutrality

      Brown Feathers

      Symbolise;

      • Stability
      • Grounding
      • Respect
      • Friendship
      • Home

      Green Feathers

      Symbolise;

      • Health and healing
      • Money and prosperity
      • Success
      • A message from your animal guides

      Blue Feathers

      Symbolise;

      • Peace
      • Inspiration
      • Psychic awareness and  connection to your spirit guides